The woman sits inside the car. Her eyes are so dark they look like they have been gouged out. Outside, the lights of passing cars blur, then fade, then disappear in the rain. Her thoughts took hold of her as if for a minute she was somewhere else. Suddenly she heard someone calling her name. At first she thought that it was just her imagination but then it became louder and louder until finally she was back to reality. It was her fiance, Henry. “Jane! Are you ok?” he asked with a slight tension in his voice. At first she was hesitant to answer the question because she knows that nothing will happen if she tells the truth. “Yes, I’m fine, I was just thinking.” She said for argument’s sake. “Are you sure? You look like you could use some rest.” he insisted as he stroked her cheek. “Yes, I’m just tired. That’s all”. “Alright, as soon as we get home, you may sleep. I’ll take care of the house”
As they got home immediately, without a word Jane went inside the house, went upstairs in their bedroom and climbed into their bed. The scent of the sheets penetrated her nose and she loved it. It was a mixture of her scent and her fiance’s which reminded her of how they made love with each other over the years. Although they hadn’t slept for weeks. As she heard Henry going up the stairs she closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep. Henry climbed into their bed and stroked her face. She knew what he wanted but he gave her no reason to give it to him. Henry finally gave up, he kissed her goodnight and finally went to sleep.
Hours passed and Jane found herself starring at the ceiling thinking of how her life would continue to be the way it was. She felt like a prisoner in her own life. Tears ran down her face. She went downstairs to their living room and there she cried some more.
This has been happening to her over the past weeks. She hadn't slept for days for it was either she wakes up in the middle of the night unable to breathe or won’t be able to sleep at all. She was unable to explain her emptiness despite the fact that she had everything that she has ever wanted. A beautiful home, a loving fiance and a career. Finally, she stopped thinking, it was exactly 3:00am. She decided to go outside and walk along their block to divert her attention. She had no hope and it made her want to kill herself thinking that as she wakes up in the morning she will have the same empty life. She was unable to breathe again, she turned around and ran towards their house. She got the car keys went outside and got to her fiance’s car. She was ready to leave. When looking at the dashboard she saw a picture of her and Henry a few years back when they were still happily together. Suddenly the memories of her past came flooding into her system. How she met Henry, the way they looked into each other’s eyes and how she had loved him. For the first time, she felt a glimpse of faith as if hopelessness never crossed her mind. She then got out of her car, ran inside their house, into their bedroom as she found Henry sitting on their bed with the look of confusion on his face, waiting for her.
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